Growing up with your toxic parents was hard.
Now as an adult, you’re torn between the fear of getting hurt again and the desire for a loving relationship like your friends have with their parents.
Your toxic parents rarely showed you love or affection as a kid.
It was as if your thoughts and feelings didn’t really matter. You didn’t matter. The harder you tried to earn their approval and respect, the more your efforts were met with their demands, criticism, abuse, control/suffocation, dismissiveness, neglect, or just plain indifference. Nothing you did or said was ever good enough for them, or even got a reaction from them.